Hello Fellow Seekers,
For many years, I’ve been told numerous times that I am a writer and to be open to writing. I’ve blocked this notion believing that I never really have much of value to offer. I now see this is an illusion of the ego. So now, with this wonderfully redesigned website (thank you Jimmy Schaub www.jmsstudios.com) I feel more ready to explore and share this aspect of myself.
I feel guided to share a bit of my intuition development journey up to this point. Growing up, I was a very shy and sensitive child, often finding solace and peace in nature. Looking back, I realize that I was in communion with something greater than myself. I just never really questioned it and never really new what to call it.
Thankfully, I had a family member who saw the gift in me and who nurtured it along the way. She really had a way of keeping me grounded and of letting me know that I was not crazy! Without that guidance and feedback I feel that my path may have turned out very differently.
I remember “knowing” a lot things when I was young. I would often know who was about to call or who was calling on the phone. I would feel other people’s emotions as if they were my own. Boy, did it take a long time to figure that one out! I also had a way of reading energies by touching physical objects. I would shake someone’s hand and immediately know of an aspect of them that I would not be able to tolerate. I could touch presents from Santa and know what was inside.
No one ever told me that I would grow up to be an intuitive reader, healer, and teacher. In a way, I am grateful for that. Perhaps it would have scared me and I may have blocked it if I could. Being so shy I just couldn’t imagine working that closely with people.
In my early 20’s, my supportive family member suggested I attend a local meditation and psychic development group. She gave me the contact information. I called for details and decided I would go to one of the meditation circles. I remember this SO vividly, all these years later. I drove up to the house where the group met. I parked on the street and just looked at the house. In short order I shook my head and said out loud “Nope. Not now!” and I drove away. I was so nervous. I don’t really know why. Perhaps I just wasn’t ready.
About a year later, I attended a very small psychic fair. I remember being really drawn to one large booth there and ended up signing up for their newsletter. At the time, I did not realize that this booth was that of the woman who held the local meditation / psychic development group I tried to attend a year prior. As I visited the booth and chatted with her, she strongly suggested I attend the next group meeting.
I remember pulling up the house, immediately remembering that this was the house from a year ago. I steeled myself and rang the door bell. A small framed woman answered the door with a big smile and a twinkle in her eyes and welcomed me into her home.
I stepped into a serene living room and felt a bit more at ease.
“Hello! May name is Grace!”
“Hello. My name is Matt.”
“Hello Mark, it is nice to meet you!”
“My name isn’t Mark, it’s Matt.”
“Oh! I’m sorry! I must have known you as Mark in a past life.”
Something magical happened in that moment. A spark was lit. I knew I was in the right place. My first thought was “Wow! She speaks my language!”
That first night at meditation group was nerve wracking as I felt so new at all and unsure if I fit in. At the end of that evening, Grace told us that her first level psychic development group had just begun last week but that we could still join in if we wanted to. So, I started Level 1 of 4 levels that Friday night. In short order, I realized that this work was not new to me at all. That some part of me had done it before. I felt like I was picking up where I left of. I made some amazing friends in that group. Ones that I feel a part of my soul group.
Still, at that point, I had no idea that I would be doing readings and energy work full time. I’d been dabbling a bit after working my full time job in the hospitality industry. Bit by bit, I started letting people know that I felt I had a gift and began asking for volunteers to practice on. That period of my life is what I now refer to as “Psychic Bootcamp”. I had lots of different types of experiences that helped shaped me into who I am now. Somethings were fun and light, some were dark and intense. It helped me to realize what I was naturally inclined to do as well as what it was that I did not want to do with my gifts. I am SO grateful for that period in my life. Time with Gracie forever changed me. I still use many of her teachings today.
A few years after graduating from Grace’s classes, I was working 3rd shift in a hotel in Columbus, Ohio. One night the front office was broken into and robbed. I was tied up, my life threatened. When the robber threw me to the ground, I turned my head to the side and my right cheekbone struck the floor. It did not hurt. I remember that my immediate thought was “Why are you still hiding from your gifts?” And odd thought, given the circumstances at hand. A part of me knew I was playing it safe by working full time in a job I was outgrowing and no longer felt satisfied with.
Several months later, I ended up quitting the hospitality industry to do my readings full time. That was in March of 2000. It has been a scary, bumpy journey since then. But one that keeps showing me that I am doing what I came here to do. I truly am thankful for every step along the way.
Well, thank you for taking the time to share in this journey. I have no real idea what will come of this blog. I just wanted to be open to having another venue to share my thoughts, experiences, wisdom, and love.
Bright Blessings to you All.