I find myself in an interesting place. For many months, I had been making excellent progress with getting healthier. I was eating better, exercising every day, and just feeling better overall. It was exciting to notice some real physical changes. These changes were beginning to feel like a solid part of my daily life. It was easier to overcome temptation than it was to take the easy way out. It was a great place to be.
But then I began to experience a lot of loss in a short period of time. A dear family member, my beloved cat, 3 spiritual friends, and a childhood friend all passed away within two weeks of each other. My whole world felt upside down. I was numb in different ways. I was astonished at how easily I slipped backwards into negative habits. But honestly, it felt like I was just trying to survive each day with the minimum amount of effort on my end. I really was overwhelmed.
As healing happened and grieving lightened, I found myself still stuck in the negative habits, of feeling little to no motivation in getting back on track. I chose to be compassionate toward myself and just take each day and each choice as they came.
Having been in a space of very low energy and little to no motivation to get going again, I asked my Angels to help me. Slowly, I am feeling energy rise within me. I am feeling inspired to apply effort toward self care and making great choices for me. It is easy to assume that I should go back to what worked for me yet I remain open to new guidance, whatever it is that will help me become the best version of me that I can become.
So, wherever you are with making progress in any area of your life, be gentle with yourself, ask for help, and know that you are worth it!
I have no attachment to outcome here. I am not putting pressure on myself by believing that my joy, happiness, abundance, and well being depend on whether or not I succeed. I just want to be present to myself, my needs, and the moment. I trust that whatever I need will be there to assist me along the way. I AM doing this!
I wish you the best of love and luck as you face your own goals and challenges in life. Know that what you need is already within you!